Amazing to think a real, live, whole person is growing inside. Yesterday I met my midwife for the first time and it really brought a sense of relief. I had this feeling that she would look at me and say 'uh, you're not pregnant'. Instead, it was 'yup, there's a baby in there, just the right size for a 13-14 week old'. And while it took a while to find, the most reassuring part was when we heard the rapid little heart beating. No denying it now! Beating away at 150 bpm. I suppose that's what made this all feel the most 'real' to me so far. Yeah, I know it's a pretty good sign when I can feel my uterus growing and when I'm sick and throwing up everyday for months. And when my hormones and emotions are all outta whack. But something about hearing a seperate heart beating twice as fast as mine, wow, that's my baby. You would think that this being my second child, it wouldn't be so difficult for me to grasp what is going on, but no, I think this time it is even more 'WHOA this is crazy!'. 1/3 of the way there! It's the start of the 2nd trimester!
